The Sorry State of Things

I've just woken up, and not for the first time, to a check that's not enough to cover my bills. Honey will be proud of me that I'm not freaking out; I'm just resigned to more juggling. It's sad that I bust my ass every day for a company that doesn't give a damn about me, one that demands performance and results but can't afford me the basic cost of living. I don't think it's right to tell employees the recession is over and berate them about sales numbers, and yet keep a wage freeze in effect for another year or more. I've said it before: there's got to be a better way.
Short of giving up my car (and the transient freedom I've become accustomed to), there isn't more fat to be trimmed. We don't have any luxuries. Cable? We don't pay for it. Internet? Necessary for Honey's photography business, as are the phones. Storage is the only expense I can see that could be eliminated, and that's a big 'could'. It's full to the roof and the door, not entirely with our stuff.
Another thought would be to pick up a roommate...  Not sure Mom would go for that and we'd have to pretend we didn't - pretty sure it says in our lease we can't sublet. BUT it would lower everybody's rent a bit, I'd prolly have to share my bathroom, and there would be no more naked time. On the up side, I'd have a little more wiggle room at the end of the month. I'm all for banding together so we can all make it through, and this is a 4 bedroom house. Honey's still sleeping, I'll have to run it by him when he gets up.
*sigh* It's sad really that this is what it's come down to. Remember when a man could own a house and put his kids through college working at a gas station? We've digressed quite a bit since then.
Well I better go get my juggling hat on... I know I'm not the only one in these shoes, but standing here anonymous and alone right now...sucks.

4 comments:

ADVERSE! said...

juggleing....god i can totally relate to this, and trying to come up with realistic, workable ideas to gain abit extra just to make ends meet... ive been studying for 3 yeras tryin to better myself and income, i start another 2year nxt week, and they have put costs up again!, they took away subsidys, and grants. passed my drivein test after 6 attepts and thousands of pounds just to find out i cant afford to insure my car which was ment to help me get to collage and do placement work lol gotta laugh else ill cry...again. ebay i found was a waste of time, now im on to carboot sales .....

MonkeyOne said...

Hang in there. I wanna say it gets easier but so far it hasn't for me. I seem to get all the way to the wire before something comes in to save the day. Talk about stress. I'm sorry you're struggling too, but I'm glad I'm not alone. :)

ADVERSE! said...

hey there, generally my mum saves the day.... really appreciate it but also sometimes i get so upset shes always the one tht fishes me out the shit, i think there lots out there strugglin....sign of the times ;)

MonkeyOne said...

I envy you that your mom is there to pull you out. I don't have a safety net like that. Based on who I married, my mum would rather watch me sink. Stubborn cow.